It's the reason I get out of bed in the morning and the reason I have a bed to get out from. But what if my salary is too low? I don't mean too low to afford life's essentials like ice cream and 2gb monthly mobile data. I mean too low compared to the cash value of my mind, body and curriculum vitae.
My boss said I'm underpaid for the work that I do in a this-is-your-six-month-review kind of way. He said I was employed in an admin role, but doing the work of an analyst. How fantastic, I thought, when he went on to say my salary will be increased, so I don't run off with a more attractive and charismatic company. According to the marketplace, my raise should be 30%. Sadly though, it turns out all small companies have a policy whereby any raise this big has to be approved by Santa who, as we all know, is notoriously slippery. I've been waiting a while now.
But what if my salary is too low? I don't live extravagantly, nor do I enjoy spending money. The worst case scenario is that I put my extra money aside for a rainy day, then end up buying a fucking conservatory in 30 years. I'd rather cover my apartment in gold coated wallpaper, then pay a stripper to strip (it all off again). How depressing would it be to slave my life for bullshit, only to die slowly in a state-of-the-art conservatory? How awful would it be to get all angsty over waiting for a raise, just to fund another layer of glazing?
Eight months into this job and my contract is still like an asexual man in a brothel. There's nothing rising. Yet, I'm being asked if I can project manage this, and put my neck on the line for that. At this point I don't know if should Dress for the job I want, when I'm getting Less for the job I don't even know I want. If only I could get salary to write shit like that. Let's please raise a hashtag to post-work society.
No one likes being fucked by their employer, right? Honestly, I'm not-so-secretly enjoying that my growing responsibilities are undermined by the word Trainee in my job title. Through my outraged red face I manage to quip daily that I'm just a trainee. I'll go up to a random colleague spouting the catchphrase, I'm just a trainee with my tongue firmly in my cheek, emphasising what a joke that is. I yell in their face so they know how much I'm worth. I tell them my value in cash like I'm a vendor selling milk.
What are responsibilities anyway? The ones at the top blame the ones at the bottom and the ones at the bottom blame them straight back. Climb the ladder to get power, delegate the power, then point the finger at any rung away from yours when everything goes wrong. My new job title is going to be Shift the Blame Executive and I'll aspire towards Shift the Blame Manager then I'll retire towards Too old to shift the blame effectively.
It actually turns out the benefits of being underpaid feed my superiority complex. I have a postgraduate degree and I could walk into any job I wanted right now (Except I couldn't challenge myself if I tried). I don't want to fail then improve, or ever leave my comfort zone. All the thirty-and forty-something wankers have hit their ceiling. I'll apologise to them when I use their heads as stepping stones, on my way to becoming a corporate God, or whatever the fuck they never managed to achieve.