Your room once was the deep forest and still wants to uncurl itself.
That's what my mother once told me before she wrapped me up in bed. I asked her what she meant and she replied with a level of assurance I had yet to see outside of her.
It doesn't really matter. The most important thing is that I'm already thinking about watching some more television.
All I could see was the ceiling and all I could think about was the hole in my head. No one else had one, why did I? I'll ask my mum tomorrow, I thought as I closed my eyes. But tomorrow never came. I passed away peacefully in my sleep and so avoided all the joy and pain of years to come. It wasn't so much the lows that scared me, but the interchangement and hassle of everything arranging itself into recognisable form.
It's better that I died. The last thing I'd want to do years later is watch two policewomen accost a homeless man for sitting by himself on a high street. I wouldn't want to watch it play out like a film, as I sip a cup of tea. The man telling a stern face of the law he doesn't want to move, that he shouldn't have to.
A police van arrives and two policemen get out, relaxed as if browsing for furniture. They're chatting, presumably about how they should exercise their power. A passer-by starts shouting at the homeless man, calling him a fucking junkie, whilst another films the scene on his phone.
The first becomes less a passer-by and more someone who's chosen to get involved. The police lead him away so he can pass by somewhere else. On departure be shouts at the cameraman, asking why he's filming the police with this fucking junkie. If the question wasn't so rhetorical, the answer might have been:
One policeman puts on a blue glove because he thinks it will protect him from disease. The homeless man being put in the back of the van is caught on camera. The footage ends there, so doesn't include the policepeople convening on the curb before the women walk off and the men drive the cage away. Fortunately, I died long before this could take place.